everyday is a little letting go..

jeya waving goodbye..
Photo by: Robyn Velasco

haist. i felt sad to be in this moment..saying goodbye to Jeya again..my friend from PS.. it's so sad but i have to let this go..

i thought, i do this every day, in every call that i take be it good or bad, professional or emotional i always have to let go of whatever i feel, it always ends hanging up the phone..

so i've come to realize that everyday is a little letting go..
i thought that i've already heard or read this quote before but i can't find in google whoever quoted this.

i read this too while googling:
"Sometimes life brightens a little when we let go of our routines. The strains and stresses of modern day life take their strains on the majority of us, and sometimes, all we need is a little creativity, a little spontaneity."

maybe what makes my life interesting now is the spontaneity of my friends...we can make a little breakfast a big fun, it's not everyday but most days of the week..this is now a routine..

i am sometimes refraining myself with that routine, when i think it's already too much.. i've been complaining, but the hard part is to make them believe i mean it. what i'm irritated about myself is that i can't decide on my own, i know i decide sometimes but i'm not that certain with my decisions, i've been so dependent of whoever is around me which is not good..i have to let go of this attitude.
i feel bad of the things they sometimes do, or tell me to do or to be somewhere, but all i do is let them. i get mad, i feel like sometimes they don't consider what's on my mind or they don't care about what i feel but they are my friends so i always just let it go. and i'm writing this sincerely and truthfully, though i know that this won't change a thing :_(
i can let that go..

p.s. but what can i do? their friendships are already a part of me..and that's something i just can't let go now..and it's true that it's hard to let go esp. if what you're letting go is making you happy..

i just can't let go|david pack

Oh, what's the matter baby?
Is the truth too hard to hear?
Well, I think you know I'm not the one who lied.
Now it's all behind us
And we both play out our lives
But the years don't change the way I feel inside.
So I'll play the game now
Though it feels the same now
Are you missin' me?
Well, baby, just be aware
Of how much I still care
Oh, I need your love...

(Chorus)
I gave to you my heart and soul
Now I just need to let you know
You're part of me that I just can't let go.
Well, tell me something baby,
Is there still something inside
To remind you of the way it used to be?
And how the years they go by
Still there's something I must say
No one ever could have loved you more than me.
So I'm passin' time now
Wishin' you were mine now
Are you missin' me?
Well, you know it's not too late
Oh, how long must I wait?
Oh, to hear you say..

(Repeat chorus)

(Bridge)

And I need your love
And I need your love
Everywhere I go there's a memory
If you can't decide on me
Well, you gotta make up your mind
'Cause some day you're gonna find
You just might need me

(Instrumental)

Well, baby just be aware
Of how much I still care
Oh, I need your love